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even though i keep telling myself i`m over you,
i take one look at you
and i`m right back where i started.   
I'm not afraid of heights; I'm afraid of falling. I'm not scared of the dark; I'm scared of what's in it. I'm not afraid to love; I'm afraid of not being loved back.   
the longest period of time,
is waiting for something or someone
you truly want. 
Its the waiting that’s hard &&
not knowing whether you're
waiting for anything at all.    
The hurt began to fade and it was easier to just let go.
At least I thought it was, but in every boy I meet, I find myself looking for you.   
I`m the type of girl who will fall for a guy she barely knows ; Who will listen to a love song & see his face ; Who will look for him wherever she goes. I`m the type of girl who doesn`t get over things easily ; Who will beat herself up when someone doesn`t love her back ; Who will cry herself to sleep cause she feels she`s not good enough. I`m the kind of girl who can talk to my best friend and tell her how much I`m hurting. I`m the kind of girl who can pick herself up, & I can switch my feelings in a minute.But I`m also the type of girl who`s strong ; Who can cry her eyes out then forbid them to come back the next morning ; Who will blast some old pop song & sing at the top of her lungs cause she feels like it ; Who will be no one but herself.   
This is the story about four people named Everybody, Somebody, Anybody, and Nobody. There was an important job to be done & Everybody was sure that Somebody would do it. Anybody could have done it, but Nobody did it. Somebody got angry about that, because it was Everybody's job. Everybody thought that Anybody could do it, but Nobody realised that Everybody wouldn't do it. It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody, when Nobody did what Anybody could of done.   
but there’s just something about him that
made me like him ever since the day I met
him. there was something about him that
made me go absolutely crazy. ![The Great Escape - Boys Like Girls - [rachel]](http://icons.iconator.com/722/ICONATOR_0ec665b3c0b113d4ec5c7d2e97b2c0e1.gif)  
I hate the way you can push me
to the limits with the things you do,
then you know just the right time
to say something sweet to make me
fall in love all over again
and i forget every little reason why I was mad. 
I don't know what it is.
Some days I just know he couldn't care less,
And other days I wonder.   
  
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| oh my gosh! i havent update in FOREVER! im gonna try and update at least once a week but im pretty busy with cheerleading and hanging out with friends;; welp heres your update.... 
It`s time to let you go. It`s time to say good-bye. No more excuses, no more tears to cry. There have been so many changes ;; I`ve been so confused. All along you were the one, all the time, I never knew. I want you to be happy. You`re my best friend. But it`s so hard to let you go now.. with all that could have been
sometimes you need to put the
sadness aside & the past behind.
you need to forget everything you felt inside;
your feelings, thoughts, and all that was there.
because you can't get hurt if you just don't care. Letting go of someone special to you
is hard.
But holding on to someone who doesn't
feel the same way is even harder. THE GREATEST IRONY OF LOVE:
loving the right person at the wrong time.
Having the wrong person when the time is right.
And finding out you love someone right after
that person walks out of your life I've been through so much with you and I still want you as much as I did the first time I laid my eyes on you. Every time I see you it's like meeting you for the first time all over again. It's the butterflies in the stomach and not knowing what to say. But out of all the things you taught me, there are still a few things I don't know. I don't know exactly how much i mean to you and I don't know how to tell you that i want to be with you the rest of my life. And as I stand here looking at you, I doubt there will ever be a day when I will get over your smile; will there ever be a day when I let go of the hugs you gave me that I can constantly feel. A day when I forget the words you said to me, a day when I forget what you meant to me or how much I will always love you. But no matter what you do to me or whatever happens between us, I know I could never get over, let go, or forget about you. I want to share my tears, my love, my happiness, my strength, my smiles, my frowns, my joy, my loss, my good days, my bad days, the rain, the sunshine, and my life with you. People can just be best friends, but at one point or another, one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe, just maybe, forever, and that's exactly what happened when I met you. I remember everything that me & you talked about
Me & you had our whole lives planned out together
& if I could, I would turn back the hands of time &
correct all my mistakes that I ever did but now
I guess I gotta move on, right? It`s still hard &
I still love you till this day. i journey for perfection it may lead me straight back to what i already knew I want someone to care so much
even though I say that I don't
I push people away who start to
love me because I know if they
stopped loving me, it would kill me Just last year we were all anticipating to get
out of this school, but now I'm standing here
on my graduation day & I find myself
hoping for just one more day. im afraid to be your friend
cuz im always gonna want more I've never been scared of someone before. Sometimes a little intimidated, but never scared. But you, you scare me with those beautiful eyes and your amazing smile. I'm so scared that I'll want to love you forever and you'll only want me for a few moments in your life. You have to know that you're a good person & a good friend. What's meant to be will end up good, & what is not, won't. Relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you must move on & realize that what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around & don't lose something real. Always fight until you can't anymore, & then be fought for. lots of girls show their beauty because
they want the world to see it, but others
try to hide it so that he will look for
s o m e t h i n g m o r e .
++The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants summer is where the girls go barefoot,
and their hearts are just as free as their toes I don't know why we all hang
onto something we know we're
better off letting go. It's like we're
scared to lose what
we don't even really have. Some of us say
we'd rather have that something than
absolutely nothing, but the truth is,
to have it halfway is harder than
not having it at all. The one that almost kills its victims.
Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert.
Most love stories are about people who
fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us?
What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone?
We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones.
We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded.
The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space!
Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly
loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life!
The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life.
All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back.
Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening!
Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms...
++ The Holiday because i'm your best friend and because i love, if what you want is to be with her then i will do everything in my power to support you and help you make your relationship work. but because i'm your best friend and because i love you, i also have to say that i am in love with you, i can't promise a future, i can't promise perfection because we're us...and i'm me...and who knows what will happen. but in my heart, i am sure, i'm in love with you and i hope you're in love with me too. So what am i supposed to do
with all these leftover feelings for you I started thinking today. Yeah, about him. And I smiled, & I laughed & cried. I remembered his arms around me & the touch of his lips when he knew I was upset. I remembered all the late night talks & all the words I was so comfortable saying to him, but I would have never been able to say to anyone else. I remembered all the songs that take me back & make me smile. I remembered all the promises, the ones we both knew would be broken. I remembered all the moments he took my breath away & how he knew more about me than I thought anyone could. I remembered the games we'd play because we talked about so much I couldn't think of anything else to say. I thought about what kind of person could have thrown that all away & hurt someone that much. Going into it, I never thought it would have ended like that. After wanting someone for so long, it's supposed to be perfect, right? And everything should last forever. But he fell out of love, & when you've loved someone you just want them to be happy. Even if their happiness doesn't involve you. shes the type of girl who tries
not to like you, but in the end
just falls for you even harder   
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| For once I wish something between us would just happen.
Good or bad, I just wish I had something to tell me
whether I should keep holding on, or let go. Sometimes i wish you would just come up to me and tell me what you honestly think of me. && it might hurt but at least i'll know what you truly think of me and i won't have a empty feeling in my heart anymore. She says shes fine
But shes going insane
She says she feels good
But shes in a lot of pain
She says its nothing
But its really a lot
She says shes okay
But really shes not I learned a lot over the years,
through fake smiles & unseen tears
friends sometimes aren’t forever
that happy memories stay with you;
& those moments go by --so fast--
so enjoy the things that go on now
cause the good stuff never lasts. friends are friends
& in some cases
thats all they'll ever be it looks like you're doing fine.
i know you can't say the same about me.
but it's not like i'm trying to hide it.
so go ahead and tell me how pathetic i am.
with my hopes and beliefs that someday
you'll love me again. sometimes all you wish for
is someone to wish for you. maybe we were in love. but baby,
time is everything, & our hearts
were ticking to a different beat. If you want to be with her then go ahead.
I'm not stopping you.
I'm not breaking my heart over this.
I'm sick with the lies you told me.
I'm tired of trying to make you love me.
Someday you're gunna see -- But, then again
someday ; someone else is going be with me. sorry that i ever loved you, sorry that i cared, sorry that we`ve taken for granted the love we shared. sorry for the waiting, sorry to waste your time, sorry if i`m not worth it, you dont have to be mine. sorry for mistaking something i thought was true. sorry if you dont understand why i do what I do. sorry for my feelings as if they`re not enough. sorry if we cant work through all this stuff. sorry if i`m cramping your lifestyle or getting in your way, sorry if i dont say the things you want me to say. sorry if i dont measure up to what you want me to be, sorry i cant be enough to make you just want me. sorry for apologizing but i dont know what else to do, sorry if my dreams only consist of me and you. sorry i ever met you, sorry i`m not enough for you, i`m sorry i love you the way i do ... I'm not her...
But sometimes,
I almost wish I was i'm not going to stress out over
you anymore. it isn't worth it.
i tried and maybe i didn't try hard
enough, but it didn't seem to work
and it's exhausting. and i'm not saying
that i don't want you, because believe
me, i do. all i'm saying is i'm
done chasing after you. yeah, im the girl with the fake smile. the
one that always looks lost. the girl that
slowly breaks a little more each day.
the girl thats always there for her friends,
but never tells them how she truely feels.
the one thats completely in love with a boy
that will never know it once you lose hope,
you start to lose everything.
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